05 8 / 2011

The Familiar Phase

“Never let yourself be the victim.”-Sebastian Stark

Well,  as for today, I broke that rule. I’ve let myself be consumed by my weak emotion that I forgot to rationalize things the way they are now.

Sometimes we walk a path where we know that the end of the road would hurt us. And yet, we choose to do so because it’s familiar. Hoping that this time around would be a different story.

I went home last night realizing that I broke my own principle. I told myself that this is the part where I hate to tell myself: “I told you so.” But at least I realize that I’m walking the same path early on before this will devastate the way I see things. I told myself last night that I don’t want to be the same fool as I was before.

The good thing is that a year ago, I wrote myself a letter with a salutation: “Dear Future Jaime”. I think now is the right time for me to read this.

I’m not sure if it was Einstein who said this. Well anyway, here it goes: “Stupidity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a different result.”

Yeah, I’ve been stupid today. At least, just for today.